love and escapes

2006-05-14T05:47:00.000-07:00

I've moved. (:

2006-05-13T00:33:00.000-07:00

So.. this is officially mojo jojo's 4th day with us!! And he makes me so happy. I love him to bits! And so do the rest of you who have met him eh?
Anyway, tomorrow's mothers' day and i got my mom chocolates and a card, and thank you tessy wassy for wasting so much time choosing 12 chocolates to put in the box! (: you know what? It's just so much easier to buy rather than make, and it's much more pretty!
Watched the sisterhood again with sessy and jazreel yesterday, and jazreel cried with me, haha. we're so super emo. I wish so much for us to be that close.

screw the world!! WHEE!

give peas a chance. bitches.

2006-05-10T04:33:00.000-07:00

Today was super DUPER fun.
I have lots of pictures and I'm a great super duper nice person! So I uploaded them all to this website. Go check it out k??
http://community.webshots.com/myphotos?action=viewAllPhotos&albumID=550245938&security=TaleNu
Here are some of them anyway... Enjoy! 3e2 rocks people! Whoo!

Tab loves me and I KNOW IT. haha.

babugs, fado, tabieeeee, ME the queen, and pit pit! (:
Yes, we're freaking awesome, and cute much!
My PRETTY PIE. This is a very very long awaited picture of my puppyyyyy! His name is mojo jojo, and it can't get any cuter than that. <3333 href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/1317/1040/1600/friends%20034.0.jpg">Me and emo candice! Haha..
Sophie loves 3e2 and candice, and babugs, and chezalot, and tabi, and fado and farah and marissa, and brenda and EVERYONE. yay!

Love and awesome-ness,
sophie

2006-05-09T05:22:00.000-07:00

This is grace small. she is a model. she is thin and pretty. she is perfect.
It's cruel, and it's sick, but thin will always be in.

Went out with tabi, candice and jasmine law today! Haha.. and I finally converted tabi and jasmine into fried mars bars addicts. CANDICE, you are impossible.
And guess what lovelies? I got A2 for chemistry, and that's almost virtually impossible. But.... tab and candice just HAD to get A1s and spoil my mood. And now i'm sad. Haha. And i need my fried mars bars.
Tomorrow we're having an excursion. And it's NOT to the zoo. HOW CAN THEY DO THIS TO US??! Excursions are supposed to be fun and animal-filled. With weird zoo-keepers and the hot hot sun and nice souvenir SHOPS, oh! and food! But anyway, I'm bringing my camera and we're gonna go crazy with pictures! Haha.
Jackasses, 3 more days...

Love and new beginnings,
sophie

2006-05-07T05:25:00.000-07:00

Fried Mars Bars are love.
Went out with Irish on saturday and nana on sunday! Haha, and I had a great time! Irish introduced me to FRIED MARS BARS at far east plaza and I'm officially obsessed. We watched The Sentinel and talked, and shopped, and laughed at strange philippino dudes at lido. It was fun.
Met up with nana on Sunday and it felt so great to see her again. I miss my nanee poo so much! And I love you forever and ever and ever. And JING A LING. Don't pretend you didn't see me today OK! I saw you.NYAHAHAHAHA.
Guess what people? The great singapore sale starts on the 26th of may! and the da vinci code premieres on the 18th of may! How cool is this month man? I'm so excited! Especially for da vinci code! I've been waiting for it since last yr!
And my beloved jackasses. FRIDAY is 5 days away.

Love and busy schedules,
sophie

2006-05-03T04:51:00.000-07:00

If only life were as perfect as jacquetta wheeler's legs.

You and I got something
But it's all and then it's nothing to me, yeah
And we wake up in the breakdown
Of the things we never thought we could be, yeah
I have no solution
To the sound of this pollution in me, yeah
And I was not the answer
So forget you ever thought it was me, yeah
I'm not the one who broke you
I'm not the one you should fear
And I want to get free, talk to me
I can feel you fallin'
And I wanted to be, all you need
Somehow here is gone

My best friends are my sisters. And sisters are forever. I'm sorry ses, if i disappointed you so much, I will make it up to you.
So my sisters, tell me we're forever. Tell me that we're for life, and let's break down and hug and solve all the problems we have. Because I would probably die if i lose anyone of you.

Love and joined by the heart,
sophie

2006-05-02T02:37:00.000-07:00

I've just watched this movie. I know.... the storyline is just, stupid.
like what? You and your best friends share a pair of magic jeans? Totally Disney channel.
But guess what? I cried like a little baby. REALLY.
You see the hispanic girl in the picture? Her part of the story was that her parents got a divorce when she was young, and when she grew up, she went to visit him. She then found out about his whole new family, and this was their conversation. Btw, lydia is his wife, and Paul is her dad's stepchild.

Carmen: Dad, it's Carmen.

Her dad: I'm glad you called.

Carmen: I just... I want...

Her dad: It's all right. You don't... You don't have to apologize, sweetheart .You were upset. I know.

Carmen: No, Dad, you don't know.That's just it, you've never known because I've never been able to tell you.

Her dad: Tell me what?

Carmen: That I'm angry with you, Dad. This entire thing. About you, and Lydia and the kids...

Her dad: It's my fault. I should have told you about them before, and I'm sorry.

Carmen: Yeah, you should've warned me, but it's more than that. It's the fact that you've found yourself this new family...and I feel like some outsider who doesn't even belong to you anymore. It's like you traded me and Mom in for something that you thought was better, and I wanna know why. Are you ashamed of me? Are you embarrassed? Just tell me, Dad, what did I do wrong? Why did you leave?Why did you have to go? And then tell me that we were gonna be closer?But that never happened. Dad, why does Paul visit his alcoholic dad every month, but you only visit me twice a year And I know, You just seem so happy about being Paul and Krista's dad... but you never even had the time to be mine.

Her dad: I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.

Carmen: I wish that were enough, Dad

I cried and cried when i watched that scene. Haha, because it's something I can relate to so much. And they also showed this scene when she was young, she looked out the window and watched her dad walk out of her life. And I thought, "That's me."
Anyway, there's this great song at the end of the movie as well. By chantal kreviazuk! And the great thing is alexis bledel is in the movie too!!! But anyway, watch the movie if you have the time. It's so tear jerking.
I'll lend you my tears if I could borrow your smile

Love and all its ugliness,
sophie

2006-05-01T04:08:00.000-07:00

Haha, this picture is really REALLY old. Took it last year. And there's QIANRU! wow!
Anyway, I'm back from Malaysia and ohmygod, i had a blast. It was SO fun and stress-free. And it was then I realised how much I missed my dad like hell.
Because you know what? My dad's different. My dad's not like my mum. My dad is easy-going, fun, thinks like me, does everything for me, and whipping out the credit card for him is so easy as well. haha. I'm not implying anything, it's just so wonderful how he's so different than what i'm used to living with. I LOVE MY DAD SO MUCH.
I'm meeting him again on thursday and already it seems so far away. And one more month to our June hols ya'll!!!!!!! Oh my god, it's unbelievable how life's so great now. i love it.

I miss him. I miss my dad.

Love and holidays,
sophie

2006-04-28T05:19:00.000-07:00

'Gilmore Girls' is getting so goooooooooooooooooood. I think I'm kinda addicted.

Anyway, my dad's coming to pick me up tomorrow to go to Malaysia... And I don't know.. I feel sort of awkward. It shouldn't be like this you know? Me feeling awkward. Because for god's sake! It's my dad I'm talking about. And I should be close to him and stuff. But I guess the quote "Daddy's little girl" just doesn't apply to me. I mean... I hardly EVER see him anyway.

I'm meeting my jackasses on Monday! And I'm totally excited. I cannot wait!! Especially because I haven't seen Sessy and Nana for ages!! And I miss them bucket loads!! And I want them to know that I'm hardly surviving without them in TKGS. Because their ALMOST like my oxygen. ok ok... They're my CHOCOLATES. And that's way more important than oxygen dude. Way more.

I'm like COMPLETELY addicted to the song by Goo goo dolls "Iris". Because it sort of, kind of, relates to my life ALOT. I know, I'm crazy. Talking about stuff you guys probably don't want to hear. Thinking about stuff I don't want to remember. And trying to forget stuff that is meant to stay by my side forever. I'm SCREWED UP dude. I am. Somebody save me from myself.

I just want to escape to somewhere I'd never call home and turn up the music so loud it blocks out all the shit from the world.
Cos' you're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be.
But sooner or later it's over, i just don't wanna miss you tonight.
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah, you'd bleed just to know you're alive
When everything's made to be broken. I just want you to know who I am.

Give me comfort. Because all is lost. And you've destroyed everything. Everything.

2006-04-25T04:55:00.000-07:00

People don't realise it, but you spend almost your whole life trying.
Whether it's trying to get something,
or trying to let go of something,
or trying to hold onto something.
And it's only logical that at times you fail after trying.
And its should be these times that you hate the most, and that tears come pouring down the most.
And you feel an everlasting heartache that strangely enough, feels like it was meant to be there all along.

Bio test today. It was screwed up at some parts but relatively satisfying at others. And guess what lovelies? My dad's coming back this weekend. And you know what? I don't know what to do, or how to feel, or how to love. My ass is screwed.

love and the soul,
sophie

2006-04-23T03:59:00.000-07:00

Today was a slow and lazy sunday. In one word, boring.
The June holidays are going to be my solace, and it seems ever so far away.
Maybe, you're gonna be the one that saves me.

Love and S.O.S,
sophie

2006-04-21T04:46:00.000-07:00

Today I experienced sadness, confusion, fear, happiness, and vulnerability.
Amazing how much you can accomplish in a day isn't it?
A day changes everything, destroys everything, holds on to everything, and gives life and faith to everything.
I watched oprah the other day.. it was an episode about the 8 women that she wants you to meet, and all the women on the show were completely amazing! And I cried like a little baby, but the one girl that hit me the most was this 13 year old girl from georgia who got cancer, but she wasn't depressed even when her whole family was so sad and had given up all hope. She writes poems, and she read a really good one, but I can't find it on the internet!! GAHH, when i find it i will put it up!! (: Anyway, here's a part of a poem she wrote when she found out about her cancer.
"If tomorrow starts without me, I want you all to see that I am still here watching over you as you watched over me"
I just cannot believe how a young girl, getting cancer, can still be so optimistic and positive about life, and if it were me, I would probably faint on the spot from the fear. And it's scary to think that I'm not immune to cancer as well... So, think.

Love and inspirational moments,
sophie

2006-04-19T04:53:00.000-07:00

benetton is love.

Today was rather boring, except for the fact that we had a debate thingy during english today, which I super duperly enjoy! (: And also during chinese, we had to compare our materialistic needs to our emotional needs, and i thought it was rather stupid because I wrote down TONS of materialistic needs and probably well... 2 emotional needs. I mean, would you seriously choose a walk in the park over a diamond ring??!!
oh god, i'm materialistic.

So my June holidays will be boring pretty much. My mom decided she would be going to australia not for leisure but for work or something, so I'm not going. But my dad and aunt will be back!! And I get to see my puppy in M'sia again! I'm excited.

Aaaah, I miss my best friends. alot.

love and credit cards,
sophie

2006-04-17T05:29:00.000-07:00

Make me the most perfect perfection.

Baby, just take me away from here. To a place where there are no worries, to a place where everything seems to be just the way you like it to be. A place that does not exist.

2006-04-16T06:24:00.000-07:00

I've wasted so much time caring too much, and I've just wasted so much heart-ache.
Sometimes life seems so never-ending and you don't have enough things to do to fill the time.. and life sort of becomes so routine it's sickening, and very devastating.
School's tomorrow, and all I can think about is the June holidays and how I'm going to get away from all that's happening right now. It's the first time in my life I feel so vulnerable and the first time I'm not able to control something from turning into a really bad situation, and it just breaks my heart.
Chelsea, I'm going to work hard with you, I'm not going to waste anymore time on things that just hurt me, I'm going to be the strong one. HAH. Just... where do i start?
May and ah bah, you guys rock my socks. forever and always.

New beginnings are like going down a dead end street, because you know you can never go back. And it's scary how everyone is so full of hope that they'd find something better. When the truth is that you just keep walking and walking... With an empty heart, and a hollow soul.

2006-04-15T08:50:00.000-07:00

There's nothing good about goodbyes. And thursday was the day I had to say goodbye to the reason I was hanging on. My friends May and Ah Bah, you both know how much I shall miss you. I shall miss you terribly.
And I'd give up forever to touch you, 'Cause I know that you feel me somehow.
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be. And I don't want to go home right now.
And all I can taste is this moment. And all I can breathe is your life,
and sooner or later it's over. I just don't want to miss you tonight.
And I don't want the world to see me. 'Cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken, I just want you to know who I am.
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming.
Or the moment of truth in your lies.
When everything feels like the movies.
Yeah, you bleed just to know you're alive.
Our song. (:
I shall suffer through time when you guys are not around, and I shall suffer through the times when no one's there to wipe my tears away. Because taking you guys away has destroyed everything. And all that's left is the hope, regret, and heart-ache.
Friends forever. <3

2006-04-12T04:54:00.000-07:00

People always think that apologies solve all their problems.
But apologies are just words that are extremely overrated,
But. They make you feel secure, and most of all, happy.
Although good intentions won't change everything.

Have faith. Because if you don't, you're as good as dead.
Screw hope. Because you have hope in everything you do. It means nothing. It's imaginary.
Don't cry when you screw up. Because remember, so did everyone else. Because no one screws up on their own.

2006-04-11T05:16:00.000-07:00

There's only so much you can fake.

GEOGRAPHY is driving me completely crazy. And if I fail for the test tmr I'm totally screwed.
And it's frustrating the hell out of me because I've just realised that there are just some things that I cannot control. And I never want to feel this frustrated again.
I feel.... restricted. And it's kind of, well, suffocating. And no, I'm not being EMO. haha.
People degrade the meaning of insane. When you're insane, you have an image in your head of a paper ball floating on water and everything seems to be in slow-mo. When you're insane, you feel dark. When you're insane, you're sophie.
HAHAHAHAHA. Yes, I made that up. I'm positively intelligent. NYAHAHAHAHAHA. ha.

love and perfection,
sophie

2006-04-10T04:30:00.000-07:00

People ask me what I want to be when I grow up, and I always answer "Happy, I want to be happy."
These fews days have been hectic and pretty emotional as well. Went out with nana and jazz on sunday!! (: And we had a great time, just like we used to. And I felt well.... relieved that maybe nothing had changed between us.
I have plans again for this weekend! Haha... Nana's dad is in-charge of supplying LEE jeans to singapore, and she can get me 40% off!! Haha.. So I might be going to get a pair or two this weekend with jazz! And then Irish has something planned.. hehe. We might be going to watch "Tristan and Isolde".. this really REALLY sappy romance story set way before romeo and juliet came about.
I've been feeling very BUSY these few days, like there's too much things to do but too little time, and when you actually stop and think about what you actually have to do, you feel like you've exaggerated. And it's weird because I always think I have massive amounts of time to fill and I get all excited, and then.... I realise it's all just preparations but nothing comes out of it.
Sometimes you think you're doing something right, but then you realise you're only chasing the ghost of a good thing.

Love and tears,
sophie

2006-04-07T05:23:00.000-07:00

If you've got troubles, and I got 'em too.
There isn't anything I wouldn't do for you.
If we stick together we can see it through, cos you've got a friend in me.
Some other folks might be a little bit smarter than I am. Bigger and stronger too.
Baby, but none of them will ever love you the way I do,
It's me and you,
And as the years go by,Our friendship will never die.
You gonna see it's our destiny.
You got a friend in me.

I hope you know the tears are for you.
I only started crying because I knew I wanted to believe in 'forever' again.
Don't fake it, and lead me on, because it'll all end the same way. With a broken heart and a useless bucket full of hopes and wishes.

2006-04-06T03:41:00.000-07:00

This is a special post.
Ok, I'm an insanely complicated and jealous person, and I know it sucks nuts, but that's me. And I thought you liked me that way. But anyway, time passes and friendships grow old. But I always believed that good things would always last for as long as you want it to. But then..... Unexpected barriers come along. In our case it's a certain freaking secondary two player and friend of yours that give me the goosebumps. And I know you might call me insane, or you might not even know what the hell I'm talking about, but I just want you to open your eyes, and really THINK. Whether you are tired of this shit, or tired of trying to fake it anymore. And if you are, then I honestly don't think this friendship's gonna last. It's like I have to persuade you to hang out with me and just have fun, but when that sec 2 bitch just calls and whines her annoying draggish voice, you take no second breath and immediately run to her rescue or whatever. And you've probably never noticed it, but it digusts me. And it's sucks because you're my favourite person ever, and knowing that you might have changed makes it even worse. Cause I miss the real you. THE REAL and original one.
so come back.

2006-04-05T04:48:00.000-07:00

Firstly, I'm not mad, I'm just welcoming you to my bitter world of insane jealousy and contradiction.
Anyway, this week is passing so unbelievably slow. Maybe it's because I've got insane plans for the weekend and time, as usual, is not on my side.
Have you guys decided on your plans for the june hols? My mom is planning another brisbane trip for like the 4th time? But anyway, not that I mind, the weather would be spectacular!! And more SHOPPING!!! muahahaha. Anyway, I can't believe no one wants to participate in the STEP program! I know it's strange and very unbelievably nonsensical to have a thai stranger who you probably cannot communicate with, to be living in your house, but think about the travelling and the shopping! And the insane fun you're gonna have. I mean, really dudes!
I just realised I haven't been reading a lot lately. And there's a new tony parson's book!! I NEED it.
Have you guys ever thought about your personal human trait? Whether you've ever been a bitch? I've done so many things in my 15 years of life that I have regretted or have yet to regret. How do you prevent mistakes? How do you point out mistakes? How can you judge yourself when you judge others? And how can you ever ever forgive? Because apologies are just words.
I feel nostalgic.

2006-04-03T06:10:00.000-07:00

I'm sad and confused. No wait, those are just understatements.

I need you like bitches need a new prada bag.
I need you to think of me and everything you left behind.

God, I'm so freaking emo it hurts.

2006-04-01T02:14:00.000-08:00

The reason that I miss you.
Is still stuck in the time period, when I looked at the shoes stacked neatly outside our door. And I cried when I couldn't find yours.

I've been sick the past few days. Some of you guys may have found out about it. (: Thanks for everyone's best wishes. love!
Anyway, I guess being away from school and having some time alone for myself is kind of liberating. And I've never been so peaceful EVER. But of course, good things never last as long as they should.
I guess there's nothing much to blog about. Unless you guys wanna know about my neverending mucus supply? I didn't think so. Anyway, just to let you people know that i'm alive. haha.

I love life, when life loves me.

love and overflowing memories,
sophie

2006-03-28T04:31:00.000-08:00

"I hope you're as happy as you are pretending"
Hey lovelies. Yeah, so life has been surprisingly good to me this week. And I'm extremely happy about that. (: And thank you marissa for making me laugh more than ever today!! I am eternally grateful!! haha.
We've finally got the math CA done today, and there's one more add math CA tmr. I hope to god it goes alright! I've been studying a fair amount, and the last time I actually took time off to study was............ Well, I don't even know whether I've ever REALLY bothered studying. But GO ME!! yay.
Jazz came over and watched CSI with me today! We are both like, SERIOUSLY, addicted. It haunts you, you know? Some of the episodes are really gripping, and you just can't forget about it. It's kinda creepy. I ADORE it<3
I feel the overwhelming urge to travel. And the june hols seem oh so far away! And I'm so keen on going to Paris or any European country! Basically, I just wanna escape to a place SO beautiful, I forget about life itself. Won't that be great? It'll be like i'm blinded and overwhelmed by the true beauty of life, cause I want my breath to be taken away.
Anyway my lovely sec threes, hope we all score so high for add math tmr it'll scare our teachers! hahahahahahhahahahaha. i'm just dreaming, thank you.
peace.

2006-03-26T05:11:00.000-08:00

haha, ok people.. don't think i'm some perverted bikini-clad model obsessed freak ok? This is gina from america's next top model 6!! And I'm so glad that there's finally an ASIAN competitior! And I think she has a great body, and she's in no way inferior to the rest of the american contests... although the western contestants may have sharper noses, lighter shades of hair colour, and gorgeous big eyes and long long eyelashes. It's great to see chinese getting some credit once in a while. haha.
Anyway, my mom and I are already planning whether we're going on a holiday in june. but we're deciding on a huge holiday to las vegas at the end of the year!!!!! yay!! but i'm kinda freaked out because I've watched soooooooo much CSI LAS VEGAS. haha, like, what if we die there or something?
Have you guys watched charmed on star world? I think alyssa milano is really gorgeous. ah poo, all the girls in charmed are really gorgeous and I WANT their clothes!!! And ppl, DREW FULLER, is HOTTTTTTT.

Love and csi obsessions,
sophie

2006-03-24T05:21:00.000-08:00

Sometimes I wish I could just hold the world in place. I only dare to wish because i know that perfection is a lie.

2006-03-23T03:07:00.000-08:00

"The stars are like photographs, you can read into them what you will. You can believe that they measure all you have lost or you can believe that they represent all you have loved, and continue to love" - Tony Parsons. <3
I think this pic of Sienna Miller is very laura ashley-ish, no? It's still gorgeous though, very vintage-y.
Yay!! I'm meeting nana this saturday!! I miss my girl to bits!!!!!!!!!!!!
Anyway, the pressure for doing well in my studies is starting to build up. Especially when everyone in my class is super competitive and take it seriously when they do badly for a certain test. But I guess I'm....... thriving. That is, because I'm not studying hard enough. heeee.
But anyway, I went for my spine appointment today, and I'm super happy b'cos my curve actually improved!! Yay! And the doctor was surprised as well. Have I mentioned that last yr he had super bushy eyebrows!! Like a huge hairy insect.... i know, eeeeeeeeeeew. But now it seems like he had gotten rid of some hairy parts and he looks better, even my mom thinks so. cos the hairy hairy bush he had above his eyes were starting to scare me.
Anyway, there's two CAs coming up next week, both maths! And the pressure is ON. And I'm NOT excited. It's kinda annoying how marks are everything in S'pore. Like if you don't score all A's then you're not considered "smart" like... wtf?
HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.... I'm high today, and i'm super excited for "beauty and the geek" tmr on channel 5. YAYYYYY. The show's funny. I highly recommend it. (:

Love and report cards,
sophie

2006-03-21T02:12:00.000-08:00

Sienna Miller is <3
This picture was taken by clive arrowsmith. he's a brilliant photographer, and those who have a passion for photography and gorgeous, flattering pictures can go to his website.
www.clivearrowsmith.co.uk I will upload more of his work as my posts are being updated.
Anyway, school has been surprisingly fun these few days!! But it's not going to be when the CAs start pouring in. And believe me... they will...
Badminton, for me, has been very liberating. It's the one and only source I go to relieve stress. And it's great. I finally, finally have a true passion for something besides fashion. YAY!
Also, my relationship with my mum is getting increasingly better! Today we had a debate thingy during english about whether parents should be the one implementing rules on their children or something like that. And I realised that many MANY of us take our parents for granted. We cannot see how badly we shut them out and how badly they try to communicate with us. It's like we've been blinded by society and it's stereotypes, it's horrible and it disgusts me. Like it's really "cool" to shut out parents and complain and complain about how they don't understand us. It's ridiculous.. we've become spoilt, unreasonable brats, and we don't even realise it. It's surprising how cliche it is for teenagers to hate their parents, and people, DON'T follow the trend.........
Anyway, I've totally got a new obsession people!!!! RIPPED JEANS!! they're so fashionable on celebs like jessica simpson, lindsay lohan and nicole richie!! And they're comfortable and totally rockstar-ish. I ripped my own jeans people! There's a website to teach you how to lah.. haha.. And they're gorgeous, and much less expensive then buying a new pair of destroyed jeans!! So hurry!! This is a trend that's so worth following! (:

Love and fashion statements,
sophie.

2006-03-17T23:11:00.000-08:00

"You're an average family burdened with a tragedy that put you under a microscope. That close, nobody can look good." CSI- Catherine Willows.

Damn, CSI rocks more than you know. Me, chels and jazz had a mini CSI marathon on friday. And I cannot get enough of it.
Badminton has been bugging me these few days. I don't know, I guess it's starting to kind of sicken me the way people try to improve me. like they're doing me a fucking favour. But honestly, they're just upsetting me in the worst way possible. Like please, i know i'm not great in badminton, but rub it in my face, i'd REALLY like that.
Nana's coming over now, and I miss her to bits!! AHHHHH!!! And school's starting in 2 days. shit.
My jackasses, I love you guys my than you'll ever EVER know. And I hope we'll be together forever. (:

Love and mixed emotions,
sophie

2006-03-14T19:38:00.000-08:00

"here's the truth about the truth. it hurts.. so we lie." -Grey's Anatomy.
This is my new fetish (: Quotes.
Jazz and Nana slept over at my house on monday! And it was great just hanging out with my best friends like I used to. They're the reason that i'm happy. And it sucks because when the hols end, they'll all be gone again. Well, good things never last forever.
Do you guys sometimes feel that when you have to say goodbye to something you desperately want with you, it's like you feel all cold and empty? I know it's so cliche, but it's so goddamn true as well.
Anyway, Jazz and I had to play doubles at the last minute in the pilot pen competition because I accidentally made JY sprain her ankle. I know, I rock. I'M SORRY JY!!!!!!!!!!!!! I really am evil.
The hols are passing way too past, and I'm really not surprised. So I'm just gonna make the most of the next four days!!! I'm gonna spend plenty of time with my jackasses, and my mom, and hw is just gonna have to wait.
I feel claustrophobic.

Love and sweet memories,
sophie

2006-03-12T03:01:00.000-08:00

"Love lost is still love. It takes a different form, that's all. You can't see their smile or bring them food or tousle their hair or move them around a dance floor. But when those senses weaken, another heightens. Memory. Memory becomes your partner. You nurture it. You hold it. You dance with it. Life has to end. Love doesn't." -Mitch Albom

Forgive me, for Mitch Albom is a brilliant writer.
The last part of the book "the five people you meet in heaven" was positively enthralling. And I honestly think I'm a totally different person after reading his book.
Today my mom, aunt and I got a 7-day trial for planet fitness! And we're going on thursday. And honestly, it's strange how people treat teenagers. Like we're all just immature adults who dress in skirts that are too short, giggle too much and speak Singlish. Hello? There are still educated and well brought up teenagers who are wise beyond their years. Like moi.. HAHAHAHA. right. I'm still excited for my free trial though!
Btw lovelies, I'm totally over people who try to be someone their not, and who act like they're really rich. Like please, get a life. People who are truly more wealthy than others don't have to boast, because that's just plain stupid.
I'm so enjoying my holidays darlings!!!! YAY!

Love and fabulous authors,
sophie

2006-03-10T05:47:00.000-08:00

The Academy Awards- Always great to look out for celebrities and their drop-dead gorgeous gowns! 2 of my top favourites:

Nicole Kidman in Balenciaga. I'd kill to look like her.
Uma Thurman in Ateliar Versace. She's absolutely gorgeous as well! And her gown is tres gorgeous!
Ok lovelies, it's officially the start of the March Hols! And I have plenty of things to get done before school reopens again. But it's still our holiday, so we should really try to enjoy it! (:
Anyway, candice! I'm going to cut my fringe tmr!! Yayyers! I'm going with Jazreel cos she wants to cut hers as well! fun fun fun!
I've just read Mitch Albom's book " the five people you meet in heaven" it's interesting and he's an exceptional writer, but not really my type. I prefer more tony parsons-ish. haha. anyway here's something I thought was really true from the book:
All parents damage their children. It cannot be helped. Youth, like pristine glass, absorbs the prints of its handlers. Some parents smudge, others crack, a few shatter childhoods completely into jagged little pieces, beyond repair.
Isn't it an extremely interesting way of putting it?
Anyway, I'm gonna see my jackasses soon! And nothing will ever make me happier.
So enjoy your hols lovelies and I'll see you guys in term 2! (:

2006-03-05T04:37:00.000-08:00

Daria Werbowy has got to be the hottest model on the planet! <3

Anyway, went shopping with my mom today and then we had a CSI marathon! And btw lovelies, wedges are SO in style again! And i bought a pair today!! (:
Also, I'm obsessed about CSI! We watched the very first season, the first 4 episodes! And we kept watching and watching. And I think Gary Dourdan is hott!
My aunt just dropped by and gave us 20 over magazines to read! I CANNOT WAIT! All the designer spring collections just waiting to be seened!!!!! Oh yeah, my aunt rocks!
I'll be super busy during the march hols lovelies, and yet I'm still planning so many things, haha! Nana wants to have a jackass sleepover, my mom wants me to accompany her to some fitness club and she might be taking me to her dermatologist, plus badminton trainings and shopping sprees!! Oh yeah, and jy, I tried out the cheesecake cafe's cakes, and they're fantabulous! WE HAVE TO GO! It's so sad march hols are only one week, no?
Btw, school sucks.

love and busy schedules,
sophie

2006-03-04T04:52:00.000-08:00

Thanks to great photography and make up, there is such a thing as perfection.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHELSEA DEAREST!
Advice of the day: when you've finally found someone good, Don't go looking for someone better.

Book recommendations: Tony Parsons books! If you're interested in only one book, buy his book "The family way" If you want sequels because you can't get enough of him, trust me you'll love this guy.. get "man and wife" and "man and boy" I made Ruo Yu crazy about his books already! (:
And here's part of a poem from w.h auden
He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last for ever; I was wrong.
The stars are not wanted now: put out every one;
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun;
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the wood,
For nothing now can ever come to any good.

2006-03-03T05:26:00.000-08:00

This is the icon i promised jiaxin! Yay, isn't it cute?
And this icon is so cute I had to post it up on my blog. It's for tabi! (: Haha!!

Nothing's forever.
Forever's a lie.
All we have is what's between hello & goodbye

2006-03-02T04:57:00.000-08:00

What hurts the most is knowing that even though you're my world,
i'm not even a star in your sky.

I've got a ton of selfish genes
and lazy bones beneath this skin
You can't lie to a liar, because of all the lies
Oh Lord make me pure but not yet.

2006-02-28T04:41:00.000-08:00

AHHHH! i want bangs too candice! (:
The model's hair in this shoot is super fantastique! I shall totally bring this photo to my hairdresser! Yay! But, my hair will take FOREVER to grow this long.
Anyway, I'm totally over geography, and an old childhood friend that totally doesn't deserve me. Screw you dude, honestly.
I love you nana and jazreel! I would like totally die without you guys! LOVE YOU TOO MUCH! And jazz, I shall totally plan something for thursday!
I NEED that model's hair!!!!!!!! It's gorgeous and i love it!

Love and style icons,
sophie

2006-02-25T03:50:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DARLING JAZREEL!
I love you too too too too much darling! Muack muack muack! And I got your birthday present which is sooo nice! And I'll post the pics up tmr for you guys to see k?
Today was a very eventful day. Nana wanted to go cut her hair, so we went to my hairstylist and I had a vision that she'd look great in "The Rachel" cut, as you can see in the beginning of my post. And nana was highly doubtful, but the results were totally, completely... GORGEOUS! I didn't bring my camera so it was a pity, but my darling nana looks so hot now! And nana loves her new cut now, and she couldn't stop thanking me. I know... I rock. HAHA.
Anyway, tmr going out with Sof! (: Yayyers! And the sales are amazing people.

Love and jennifer aniston obsession,
sophie.

2006-02-23T04:25:00.000-08:00

IT bags of the season!

The Yves Saint Laurent bow bag. It's feminine and classy and totally versatile. It doesn't look too cheap and it's unique. I LOVE IT!
I love the YSL bow bag in gold!! (:
NEW Dior Gaucho Bag. It's slouchy and has a hobo look to it. It's very similar to the famous Balenciaga, but yet the style's more modern and simple.
And last but NOT least, the famous and highly demanded CHLOE leather Paddington Bag!! It's classy, modern and totally chic! I love the off white color!
For cheaper alternatives, I saw a gorgeous bag from WAREHOUSE, but they don't have a bloody website, so i can't show it to you guys! grr!! Anyway, you guys can go check out topshop and WAREHOUSE too! they're bags are awesome. (:

Love and bag-aholics,
sophie

2006-02-21T05:12:00.000-08:00

Isn't she just the most pretty perfect thing? She's my favourite thing in the world, and when you meet her, she'll just grab your heart. She's my darling baby pie!!!! (:

2006-02-19T05:00:00.000-08:00

Hey lovelies, I'm in a totally emo mood today. I haven't been like that in a LONG time. Maybe it's because I've been reading too much emo icons. haha. but they rock anyhows. <3
Watched charlie's angels yesterday. and I'm not a fan of drew barrymore, but when you watch that show you learn to love her, it's kinda creepy. And lucy liu's gorgeous!!
Oh yeah, just a reminder to all of those who haven't watched "in her shoes"... WATCH IT! I'm not kidding people, it's a great movie. I love movies with sappy poems! yay!
Oh and guess what! I am not a fan of rap music, but when I heard eminem's "When I'm gone", I cried ok! sheesh, I think I'm TOO emo. Go me! I tend to overdo things. Oh yeah, I just realised, I've missed a hell of alot of oprah lately. NOOOO..
And another reason of my emo-ness if because I've been reading this girl's quizzes.
www.quizilla.com/users/narcoticglitter/quizzes she's great! And I love the series "he teases you because he likes you.. my ass." it's awesome, and hilarious.
and just in case all you study freaks out there are wondering, yes, I do have a lot of time. IN YOUR FACE! NYAHAHAHA.
I'm going shopping next weekend, i don't care, i don't care, i DONT CARE, no one's stopping me!

Love and silly me (:
sophie

2006-02-15T23:30:00.000-08:00

I love CHANEL! <3333
And Fabiana Semprebom, the girl in the second picture. She's so gorgeous!! (:

Love and chanel frocks,
sophie

2006-02-14T03:19:00.000-08:00

HAPPY VALENTINES' DAY LOVELIES!!
I love all you people who gave me all sorts of chocolates! You guys are true valentines! haha.. And vidhu... HMPH. *blink blink*
Anyway, went to vjc to see nana and ses today! And I think they look too grown up in their uniform! AHH! Anyway I want to go to vjc after sec 4!! I wanna wanna! But I honestly don't think I can. I can do anything except study real hard! That's just me. Lil' lazy me..
Anyway, got my mum a really cute teddy bear with a bright red sweater with a heart on it, and it was carrying a red rose. (: I'm like, the best daughter. haha. And I also got my darling aunt a cute little teddy bear in a flower arrangement. Valentines' day is so much fun!!
Oh yeah, and the e maths CA today.. yup, as usual, I totally failed it. I CAN'T DO SEC 3 PEOPLE! Is studying all day and night seriously going to help me? I'm like the laziest person in the world! How the hell do i even start to study hard? sheesh. I never had to do that before..
Life's a bitch, man.

Love and sweethearts,
sophie.

2006-02-13T04:21:00.000-08:00

Love and icons that walk the red carpet, sophie

2006-02-12T04:48:00.000-08:00

I have cool icons today. (: I'm dedicating them. The Draco Malfoy one is for vidhu. The pic of him is not very flattering, but i think the words are cool. GO TOM FELTON FANS! I have loads more btw, I'm just taking my time putting them up. And the Johnny Depp one is for nana. And whoever likes Johnny Depp. HAHA.

Tuesday is Valentines' Day people. GET CHOCOLATES!
NYAHA. More icon dedications coming up. YAY. This will be, like, your Valentines' Day gift. yes, MUAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

2006-02-09T04:19:00.000-08:00

We won dunman high today! Yay! But it wasn't a happy day for everyone.
Sometimes life gets so stressful, it feels like there's nothing anyone can do that will fix your sense of loss and confusion. Sometimes, school just makes you feel as though you'll never ever find comfort in anything else. Hang on tight honey, as turturous as this year will be, it will pass on by eventually. Just know that we'll always stand by you, as the days pass one by one.
Tmr there's no CA, oh thank god. You know how rare days without CAs come by? Like, never. I know right, it sucks nuts. But everything is going pretty well for me these days, not like rainbows and a pot of gold or something, but just... well, normal. And that's considered terribly lucky.
Oh god, I totally miss the comfort of being a young sec 2!!! GAHH! I should have appreciated it while it lasted. And I totally didn't! Oh, damn.

I realised something today.. that EVERYONE, even the people you least expect, have a dirty little secret or two. And some are even dirtier than you think.

Love and heartaches,
sophie

2006-02-07T00:17:00.000-08:00

The O.C is on tonight! <3
me without you is like
a shoe without laces,
a nerd without braces.
asentencewithoutspaces

Life's been a freaking bitch lately.

Love and short entries,
sophie

2006-02-06T03:37:00.000-08:00

I admit it, I am obsessed with vogue photoshoots, and... gwyneth paltrow. the mix is perfect. (:
I tell you guys, I am so not gonna blog about school because this is the only chance I get to escape from it, so I am SO not gonna think about it. As you guys should know, it sucks nuts.
Anyway, I watched I not stupid too the other day, and I am not going to be some ah lien swooning about shawn and joshua, because I seriously don't think they're GREAT looking. But I loved the movie, it brought me, and pretty sure everyone else in the cinema to tears. I think all S'poreans relate to this movie in some way or another, and it helps to improve a person's soul. Or, more specifically, a parent's soul. Or if not improving their soul, help them to understand their children's life better and what they're doing to it. Well, most of them are probably ruining it. Like the part where shawn's parents were reading his blog... I mean, is that the only way to get our parents to wake up? Honestly, when some of us try to touch our parents, they bite our hands off. It's totally unfair.
So the movie's highly recommended. love LOVE it!
OK, So I better go on, study for a math. ): Seeing the jackasses this saturday! YAYYERS!

love and heartstrings,
sophie.

2006-02-01T04:11:00.000-08:00

i carry your heart with me(i carry it inmy heart)
i am never without it(anywhere i go you go, my dear;
and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling)
i fear no fate(for you are my fate, my sweet)
i want no world(for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

-Poem by e.e cummings. from the movie "in her shoes". Isn't it beautiful?? I absolutely adore it. I had goosebumps when Cameron Diaz was reading the poem to her sister. And this poem is for special people I love out there, for Valentines' Day. My mom, my dad in Perth, my aunts, my sister, my darling jackasses, nana, ses and jazz!! Because this poem is everything I ever felt for the people I love with all my heart! I absolutely LOVE poems that give me a fuzzy feeling inside, don't you?
Love and special moments,
sophie. (:

2006-01-31T04:42:00.000-08:00

Went out with my darling jackasses today! Yay! Then we came back to my house and watched "In her shoes" and I love love LOVE the movie. I thought it was going to be some normal chick flick but it really isn't, and I absolutely love toni collette!
Anyway, these few days of chinese new year have been great! I went to Malaysia to stay with my dad's side for the weekend and took more pictures of my darling doggie!! And she's as cute as ever!!!! I'm having another party this Saturday with my family and on Sunday I'm meeting my aunt to watch a movie. Yay! But tmr is back to school and I'm totally sad. ): It would be perfect if CNY holidays were for a whole week! So anyway, I have a Social Studies test tmr, I know, it totally sucks!! Right after the hols and they already have tests for us. Well, that's S'pore for you.
Guess what lovelies, Valentine's Day is coming, and I'll be spending it with my mommie and my jackasses.. haha.. And you guys better get me some chocolate hearts ok!!!!! remember the 11th darlings!
Love and bestest friends,
sophie.

2006-01-27T04:50:00.000-08:00

OK. This whole post is going to be about the jackasses, so if other non-jackasses don't wanna read it, then.. well, don't.
I LOVE YOU GUYS MORE THAN ALL THE CHOCOLATE IN THE WORLD! <--And you know when I say that I sure as hell mean it! And if I had never met you guys, my life would never EVER be complete. And today when you guys came back, it seriously felt as if a part of me had come back as well. And that was the only time I truly felt happy and complete this whole new year. And it was the best thing ever!!!
Sesil- You are gorgeous and smart and lovely and kind and you have one of the most beautiful souls in the world! And I could never ever replace you. I love you soo much darling, and you were my very first friend in secondary 1. We have had so many experiences, and when you came back today I knew I was going to get teary-eyed, and i damn well did!

Nana- You are someone I would never ever forget for my whole life. I cannot imagine myself never knowing you. You're one in a few that can truly make me feel happy and I'm so glad to have known you. It's so hard to put it in words how much you mean to me, but you and the other jackasses have TOTALLY become part of me. Something I can never live without.

Jazreel- What can I say? You're like a sister that god forgot to give me. We're so alike in so many ways, and I cannot imagine me not ever being there for you, and you not ever being there for me. It'd be soooo UNNATURAL. haha. I cannot count how many times we've laughed and cried together. And although we might grow apart since we're in different classes, we'd always be sisters by heart and we could never stop being best friends.

Overall Jackasses, these 2 years with you have been the BEST years of my life. You guys have become part of me and part of who I am. It's so strange thinking back on the things we've went through together because these 2 years seem like forever doesn't it? I just don't want to think about who I'd be if I hadn't met you guys. I hope one day, like 20 years later, we'd still be the jackasses from tkgs. Because honeys, I'm damn sure the jackasses will last forever. No one will take anyone else's place, FOR DAMN SURE.

2006-01-26T01:12:00.000-08:00

SERENA!! I LOVE YOU TOO MUCH!!! RAHHHHH!!!!!
Hehe, ok, and now i'm calm.... HEHEHEHE.
This week has been super FUN! I loved it! We went through some major bonding and i made a lot of new friends. (: We had this non-obs program and went to the NUS museums and stuff. It doesn't sound like fun, but it's always fun with friends around, AND there was air-con. And today we went to some wetland reserve and a vegetable farm, which was totally TORTUROUS because sunlight is my worst enemy!!! RAH!
But Serena.. if you were around, this whole week would be priceless.
Anyway, we started our east-zone badminton tournament on wednesday and to my utmost horror I had to play doubles at the very last minute. But it was against manjusri, so me and chels won LAH.
Anyway Serena, LIKE HURRY UP AND MEET ME SOON! I am seriously going insane!
Oh yeah lovelies, Mon and Tues are holidays!!! I'm going to be super busy with my family this whole weekend. But I'm meeting nana on the 4th! yayyers!
And serena, I'm serious. I would seriously bite your principal's head off if you can't come on the 4th. And I'd go crazy too.
Ok, I think I'm hyper today. Because of Serena's tag! And this whole post is of Serena. That goes to show that I'm already kind of crazy. YOUR FAULT, NANA!
K, I'm going now. Bye lovelies! HOLIDAY TIME!!

2006-01-22T02:41:00.000-08:00

Kate Moss. Without coke <3
Gwyneth Paltrow. She's pregnant again!
Went for lunch with alexa, irish, priscilla and the mums today. And I'm super excited for Chinese New Year! Yay! And alexa, don't fret about obs, you'd do just fine.
Not much things to talk about lovelies. Just need a huge amount of retail therapy and neoprints to get me going throughout the year. :)
That means you guys, nana, ses, jazreel, alexa, irish and priscilla! haha.
take our tears and put them on ice
cause i'd burn this city down to
show you the lights.

love and celeb inspirations,
sophie

2006-01-20T03:41:00.000-08:00

It's the weekend lovelies! And i'm super excited because next week there's no school cos of OBS, and chinese new year is around the corner! Yayyers!
Finally a REAL long break from school. whoever invented education sucks! I'd so much rather be a cavewoman and shop all day and eat chocolates and gummies. (:
Today was such an eventful day, I love unnecessary drama, it's so cliche! And a totally fashionable time waster. Isn't it perfect for me? Don't worry,I go through unnecessary drama every second of my life.
And I'm SO devastated to announce this, but I have to cut down on my chocolate intake. I'm terrified of getting diabetes or something, and I'm trying to go healthy in my diet. Well, at least HEALTHIER, because I would totally die if I had to cut out chocolates and sweets completely. I mean, can anyone survive without sugar? Well, exclude those freaky anoxeric dorks.
Btw, I love love LOVE American Idol. <3 And Christopher Daughtry!!!!
http://americanidolboy.blogspot.com/2006/01/idol-top-24-contestant-pic-chris.html
Don't worry, there's no viruses!

Does he look familiar? He's the one in the advertisement on channel 5 "Is he the ONE?" and i totally think he is. He's married to an older woman and takes care of her and her kids. And his wife was crying and saying that this was his dream and he's never done anything for himself before. And I think that's just awesome.

There's another guy.. Ace Young who rocks as well. LOVE HIM.... CUTIE! And another guy who sang a Frank Sinatra song, he's so cute! I seriously think this American Idol will be the best one so far. Yay! I'm excited now.... Yay for Simon Cowell too!

Love and idol fever, sophie

2006-01-17T04:53:00.000-08:00

There's 3 CAs coming up this week, oh poo.
Went to Chinatown this evening. Lots of rude people bumping against you, but otherwise it's alright. I bought 2 new dangly earrings. I have this thing for short trends, it's bad but fun?
Anyway, finally got my plans for Chinese New Year sorted. New Years' Eve we're going to Hilton to have lunch with my aunts, and then I'm spending half of New Year with my mum's side and the other half plus mon and tues with my dad's side. It's complicating I know.. But I'm used to it.
My dad's coming back in June, yay! At least I don't have to wait till the end of the year..
Poor nana and ses suffering in VJ.. Can't wait to meet you guys after chinese new year darlings!
I can't wait for next week! While everyone is at OBS, we'll be here, clean and happy. :)

I repeat... I need some retail therapy! I have like so many things I need to get!
Btw, I got through a day without chocolate!!! Almost. I ate one tiny chocolate square.. hehe. But that's great progress right?
Btw, I've also been thinking about angelina and brad's kid, and everyone is saying it'll be the most good looking person in the world. But think about it.. if a boy turns up looking like angelina, and a girl like brad??!! You get the picture. And also.. positive + positive = negative! And, the dad's an asshole, and the mum's a whore, the poor poor kid. Muaha.

Love and celebrity drama,
sophie

2006-01-14T00:55:00.000-08:00

I want my hair to be just like hers. And I love her brunette.
Yay! Cute, small little bags are in! I never really liked huge ones..
I love love LOVE vintage-y necklaces. especially this chanel one.<3
more updates soon.
love and spring collections,
sophie

2006-01-13T04:06:00.000-08:00

I'm SO not going to OBS! Because of our badminton tournament. I'm happy because I don't need to rough it out on some strange island. :) But I'm kinda sad cos then my classmates will forever be this antisocial.
Things have been going on lately. I honestly don't know if it's really happening. And honey, I think your dream of us walking right pass each other without talking is going come true sooner rather than later. I know, right? And I know we're gonna have to drift apart, we've already started. I was kind of sad at first, but like, what's the point? You don't care. And I don't know.. You've kinda changed, alot. It's so unlike you, it scares me.
So come to think of it, you'll probably be taking my pictures down from your wall and putting new ones of others eh? Don't worry about it, my pictures are turning old anyway.
And I just realised, for some things, a heart doesn't break, it just stops caring. And honey, I don't know about you, but we're having another jackass outing after chinese new year kays? Don't come if you don't want to. We're kinda broken up anyway. I'm not mad, I just know I shouldn't care anymore. Hey, new year, new beginnings right? It's just kinda hard to say goodbye.
I still love you, though. You're cool and you're my friend. :)

It's the weekend lovelies! Have fun!
Love and heather marks,
sophie (a jen fan!)

2006-01-12T04:02:00.000-08:00

Have you guys heard what happened?! Angelina Jolie, that bitch, is fucking pregnant! I knew it! She's such a slut! Oh my god! I almost died when I heard the news.
Oh my gosh, I wonder how Jen's coping!!! I pity her so much! This so fucking sucks for her! She said in the Vanity Fair interview that she doesn't know whether Brad cheated on her or not but she chooses to believe in him!
Goes to show hot guys are bad news. And hot girls, are even worse.
My god! Bitchy much?
I totally don't know why I'm kicking up such a fuss, but I totally support Jen. She's so gorgeous and she really doesn't deserve this.
It always rains hardest on people who deserve the sun doesn't it! How fucked up is this???!!!
ARRRRRR!
Ok, I guess I'm just freaking out because the world is way too nice for people like Angelina. And also because I've been through things like this in the "real" world. (a la my mum, dad and third party)
She deserves so much more. Not just some asshole and his whore. :)

2006-01-10T01:30:00.000-08:00

He said, good luck, you know you better go and get it, Cause love is never in the same place if you left it.

I just realised how much i love my jackasses. It's not easy for me to let people into my life when most of them just break my heart. but these people, they help and humankind me. :)
I'm suddenly obsessed with icons. they're so cute and so stylish.
Anyway, today was pretty boring. did some chinese new year shopping and stuff.
life is getting pretty stressful now. it's really personal. and it truly sucks. oh god, i need some retail therapy!!!!!!!!!!
I challenged myself not to eat anything chocolatey just for today, and it's going horribly. I finally realised how badly i am addicted to chocolate. i love you chocolate, with all my heart.
I love Sienna Miller. <3

Hey you pretty face, you don't need that bastard Jude. You're gorgeous anyhow.

2006-01-08T00:39:00.000-08:00

It's hard to say how I'm feeling today.
I've finished reading the book Tuesdays with Morrie. And when I finally put down the book, I was stunned. I couldn't speak for like 10 minutes, I just looked straight ahead and just thought about life for once. hmm.
I'll type out a page from the book.
"Forgive yourself. Forgive others. Don't wait, Mitch. Not everyone gets the time I'm getting. Not everyone is as lucky."
I tossed the tissue into the wastebasket and returned to his feet. Lucky? I pressed my thumb into his hardened flesh and he didn't even feel it.
"The tension of opposites, Mitch. Remember that? Things pulling in different directions?"
"I remember."
"I mourn my dwindling time, but I cherish the chance it gives me to make things right.:
We sat there for a while, quietly, as the rain splattered against the windows. The hibiscus plant behind his head was still holding on, small but firm.
"Mitch," Morrie whispered.
"Uh-huh?"
I massaged his toes between my fingers, lost in the task.
"Look at me."
I glanced up and saw the most intense look in his eyes.
"I don't know why you came back to me, But I want to say this.."
He paused, and his voice choked.
"If I could have had another son, I would have liked it to be you."
I dropped my eyes, kneading the dying flesh of his feet between my fingers. For a moment, I felt afraid, as if accepting his words would somehow betray my own father. But when I looked up, I saw Morrie smiling through tears and I knew there was no betrayal in a moment like this.
All I was afraid of was saying good-bye.

Ok, this is definitely not the best part of the book. But in a whole, I loved it. :)
Back to school tmr. Holiday on tuesday. Get excited!

2006-01-06T21:35:00.000-08:00

"You believe in true love, that stuff always ends in tears." Tony Parsons.
Nothing much is happening today. I miss nana so much it hurts! She called me yesterday for like 3 minutes and it felt really good talking to someone you're so close to. urgh. that makes me remember how my life is so imperfect.
I have an English Compo CA next week, I'm not nervous or anything, it should be pretty easy, besides the fact that you have to write at least 500 words. :)
It was a pretty emotional morning today. I guess I shouldn't say anything, but I cried, and my heart broke, I truly felt it. You can feel your heart breaking, you know, I swear it's true.
The new accesory trend is everything to do with Disney. I don't know, it felt like right after I came back from Hong Kong Disneyland, everybody's going crazy over mickey mouse head charms and Winnie the pooh.
Oh, and everyone's perming their hair. hehe. :)
I need a new pair of jeans!!! Help!

Love and piglet stuffed toys,
sophie.

2006-01-06T03:32:00.000-08:00

2006 is gonna be a long long year. I can feel it. haha.
sec 3 is so tough! I miss being sec 2 like crazy! I really REALLY hate growing up and getting older.
Things have been happening around the house and overseas in Perth, hehe. Cos that's where my father is. I miss him loads, but sometimes it's hard to know whether he still loves us like he did when my parents were together. And it's heartbreaking to think that he never will.
Anyway, on to more happier things! It's the weekend, and I'm esctatic! Can you believe how pathetic I am that I watch the week crawl by and celebrate when weekends come?
Oh yeah, and it is just me? But whenever a new school year starts, it just makes me realise how little time we have left to live, and how time passes so freaking quickly!
Anyway, I've got loads of New Year Resolutions, one of them is to study harder. And it's the hardest resolution I've got yet. :)
I can't wait for Chinese New Year, it's another fantastic holiday and I get to see my family again. I'm happy!
Oh wells, Hope you guys are having a smashing good year. *hah* and remember to party hard during the weekend! And look forward to Tuesday. It's another holiday!!! :) Hurray!

Love and yet another school year,
sophie.

2006-01-02T05:53:00.000-08:00

Isn't she positively adorable?? My poor little baby puppy back in Malaysia.... She's actually my grandparent's, but she's stolen my heart and refused to give it back. I'm gonna see her again during Chinese New Year, hopefully it'll come soon. Have to get through OBS though. ugh.
Tomorrow's the day we go back to school and you have no idea how much I'm dreading it. Especially the OBS thingy. The holidays have just been so much fun! And I know it's been ever so long and it's time to go back to school, but I'm still in the holiday mood!
Anyway, Hari Raya Haji is a holiday right? It's on the tenth, means next Tuesday. Oh thank god for holidays after our long holidays!
And Nana and Ses would be gone, Jazz would be in a new class and she'll make new friends too. So I guess I have to go through the whole new class, new friends process too.
Watched Memoirs of a Geisha already. It almost brought me to tears. Who bloody cares if the actors are not Japanese? As long as they portray their characters well, everything all good.
Gong Li and Zhang Ziyi are so gorgeous. They're real gorgeous Chinese women. :)
Alrighty, I guess I should go now. See ya'll tk people in school tmr!

Love and first day of school blues,
sophie

2006-01-01T02:52:00.000-08:00

Damn, it's officially 1st of January 2006. It's scary how one year just flew right by.
Although year 2005 seemed oh so short, HEAPS of things happened. Good and bad.
And now it's time for a new year once again, and I'm less than ready. It's scary having new beginnings. Really, REALLY scary. Especially when you are gonna be 15 next year.
Oh GOD, I'm having a mid-life crisis way, WAY too early in my life.
I mean, I'm gonna be freaking 15 next year! I don't even feel 15! I still feel 13! And I still need my mommy and daddy and my entire family. I wanna be an annoying, whiny kid!
Let me just take a deep breath, I'm more grown up than I think I am. OH GOD!!!
Anyway, 28 more days till I meet my family again. C'mon time, you can go ahead and fly past again. HURRY!

And my ultimate new year resolution: Enjoy life, before you know, there won't be any time left.
Cheers!

Love and teenage mid-life crisis,
sophie

2005-12-30T22:21:00.000-08:00

Today's new years eve and I have plenty of things I hope to get done next year.
1-Go to Paris
2-Get good grades
3-Get a new wardrobe to die for
4-Make some really awesome friends
5-Spend more time with family
6-Be truly happy with myself
7-Not ask perfection from anything in this world
8-Love someone
9-Meet up with ALL the jackasses
10-See my dad

I still have plenty of things but I'm pretty sure you won't wanna hear it.
Nana, I may be arranging an outing sooner than you think!

Love and new beginnings,
Sophie.